Sleep Paralysis Part 2

Last night I experienced sleep paralysis again.  This time, however, it was not like my first experience.  I still felt the same crippling fear and shortness of breath as I felt during my first experience, but, the difference this time was in my overall reaction to it.  This time I knew I was experiencing sleep paralysis and the images I saw were of a grim reaper slashing away at me while hovering over me.  Knowing that I was going through this, I still felt a bit of panic at first, but, not as much as the first time.  In fact, once I regained my composure, I started telling myself to try and get up and out of my body.  I kept trying to move my body but I couldn’t.  I finally pushed myself up and noticed a white noise getting louder and the air around me was vibrating intensely.

All of the sudden, with one mighty push I was thrown up into a standing position and I was in my room standing right in front of my dresser drawer.  At this point the vibrations were so intense that it knocked me off my feet and back into my sleeping body.  I woke up and felt my heart beating super fast.  I finally had my first real “conscious” out of body experience and was fully aware and in control of it.

This time around I didn’t have anything negative or traumatic happen to me.  Instead, I think I was opening myself up psychically to the experience and maybe subconsciously was hoping to finally get another crack at sleep paralysis.  However, I do have to admit I did have a nightmare after that.  I dreamt that my mother started crying and screaming for me to come help her.  When I got to her I saw a huge growth on her lower back, around the kidney area.  There was a huge lump protruding out of her body and she was in pain.  She was afraid of dying and I held her in my arms and cried and begged her to be ok.  I cried in my sleep a lot and when I awoke I could feel in my face the pain from crying while sleeping.  After waking up I ran to my mothers room and grabbed her and hugged her.  It was such an intense and gut wrenching dream.  I felt helpless and hopeless.

I am logging this in my blog because I want to keep track of all my sleep paralysis and out of body exerpeinces.  I want to go back and try to understand the relevence it has in my life.  Why am I experiecing this?  Is this me tapping into my infinite potential?  What will I discover during these out of body experiences?  How far can I go out of body?  The point is, for the first time I was able to control something that seemed so uncontrollable.  I am excited to have another out of body experience and looking forward to my next journey.  I hope this time though, that I get passed my bedroom walls and possibly out into another dimension!


Intention setting

So the new year is fast approaching and boy do I mean fast, because it’s actually the day after tomorrow!  Have you set resolutions for 2015 yet?  If you haven’t, let me suggest you try something different.  Instead of setting resolutions, why not set intentions?  Intention setting is far more powerful than setting resolutions.  When we set a resolution we limit ourselves to a set of items that need to be crossed off or “resolved” by a certain time frame.  Instead of looking at our goals for the new year as a list of to-dos, we should be setting intentions of what we aim to achieve in the upcoming year.

By declaring your intentions to the universe and yourself, you are allowing magic to occur behind the scenes.  Your soul emits an energy or frequency of waves that attract your said intentions.  There is a big difference between setting intentions versus just stating or writing out your goals.  When you have the intention to do something, you are not only thinking of the goal in mind, but you are also thinking of accompanying thoughts and actions that will coincide with your intentions.  It’s like your brain is on hyperdrive and it is aligning your intention with all the little steps you should and could be implementing to help you achieve your desired intentions.  By setting intentions, you allow yourself to be in the present moment while thinking and planning for the future.

Resolution setting is different.  It forces you to think of only the future and when you will finally achieve the resolution.  It takes away from your goal because it is seen as achievable or unachieveable.  Your mind is being occupied by the wrong thoughts or being channelled in the wrong way.  Your mind cannot think of accompanying actions that will help develop your goals or come up with other crazy alternate plans.  It’s either a yes I achieved my resolution or no I didn’t achieve it.  Whereas, if you set intentions, your focus is being simultaneously channelled in the present moment and the future so that you can actually manifest actions to help you achieve your goals, while also keeping your eye on the prize.

So, before you go into the new year, ask yourself of what your intentions are for the upcoming year.  Ask yourself of what you wish for most from deep down inside your soul.  Then with that intention set in place, focus on how you can manifest those intentions through certain actions.  Doing this, you will achieve most if not all of your intentions for the new year.


“Character is the ability to carry out a good resolution long after the excitement of the moment has passed.” ~ Cavett Robert


Accepting the reality

For the past few years I’ve been dealing with an on again off again relationship. This relationship has been by far the hardest one to get over. For some reason I keep getting sucked right back into the viscious cycle. This relationship is extremely unique, whereby, most people in normal relationships would probably consider it quite unhealthy. I do not deny that many components of this relationship is in fact unhealthy. However, something inside of me is not willing to give up on the potential of the other person involved. For some weird reason I have this massive obligation, or feel the need too, nurture my partner and help him grow as an individual.

After years of agonizing over whether to leave or stay, I have finally come to the conclusion of accepting the reality that is.  I have come to finally accept that this person came into my life as a lesson but not a lifetime.  I am well aware that this person was introduced to me by the universe to help shake things up and make me break free from my old ways.  I understand today that this relationship was designed to strengthen me and help me put things into perspective of what I truly deserve versus what I want.  I have allowed my heart to follow its course and I can safely say I have zero regrets.  My heart has not been broken nor has it given up.  Instead, my heart has finally learned and applied unconditional love.

I know that unconditional love is very rare to find.  Unless you have children most people will never understand the notion of unconditional love.  However, from time to time, we get the rare individuals that come into our lives who help us finally grasp this concept.  To feel so strongly for someone that you have zero obligation too is a beautiful thing.  I have become a better person because of my partner.  I have learned what my limits and my extremes are.  I can finally truly look at myself in the mirror and know exactly what I deserve.

I have accepted the reality of my partner and his purpose in my life.  I am very grateful that I stuck it out and allowed my heart to pursue what it wanted.  I have learned to trust my soul and heart because of this man.  I have finally learned to let go and trust in the universe to teach me the lessons that I am supposed to learn.   I am not giving up on our relationship, rather, I am accepting his limited scope within my world.  By finally accepting the reality, I no longer fear the end of our relationship, rather, I am embracing the change that is to come.  I no longer fear not having him in my life, rather, I am excited to start a new beginning of self-love.  By accepting the reality of our situation, both of us can finally grow and apply the many lessons we have taught one another.  By accepting the reality, both of us can transform into the persons we are meant to be.


“It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror of another loving, caring human being.”        ~ John Joseph Powell

Attitude of Gratitude

My attitude stinks!  My attitude toward myself, most importantly, sucks and needs a major overhaul.  I am realizing that in order for my attitude to change I have to make that change directly from inside of myself, no where else.  I can’t go buy a bottle of gratitude, I can only achieve gratitude by focusing my attitude on feeling gratification instead of focusing on all the other feelings that are associated with “attitude”.  Does this make sense?

Ok let me try to explain it a little more clearly.  I grew up in a very negative enviroment.  I constantly heard negativity and it was rare to ever hear words of encouragement.  Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t grow up being physically abused to the point where I claim I’m some victim.  No no, not at all…I grew up with parents who lacked the ability to communicate positivity in a way that hindered my ability to develop gratitude.  My dad is a very positive person, however, being married to someone who is beyond the scope of negativity, has taken a toll on his ability to communicate effectively.  He still has the ability to make us feel encouraged and unstoppable but not through words or gestures, but, rather with an unspoken understanding.  My mother, on the other hand, is so negative that I can safely say her negative attitude has definitely penetrated my character and I do catch myself being just like her at times.  The saddest part is, the negativity I have learned from her doesn’t affect anyone else, it affects me directly.

What I have learned and how to cope with certain things is greatly attributed to the 30 plus years of influence by my family.  Growing up I always heard that my life or my situation was never good enough.  There was always something wrong, or missing, or not enough money, or not enough time or blah blah blah.  These lessons were never taught by my dad, only my mom.  She is the only person in my life that I could never understand because here is someone who has EVERYTHING going for her, yet, has the hardest time being GRATEFUL for all that she has.  This ungrateful attitude spilled over in us, the kids and we started becoming ungrateful about everything, including our own selves.

Having never heard a thank you, or you did a great job, I’m so proud of you, and etc. I was never grateful to myself for all that I do for myself and those around me.  I developed a poor attitude about who I am, where I’m going, what I want to be and etc..  I didn’t appreciate anything given to me, because I never realized how grateful I should be for receiving said blessings.  I didn’t appreciate myself and all the wonderful things I do as a human being to contribute to this society.  I didn’t appreciate my many gifts and talents that made me uniquely me.  I didn’t appreciate the many great things I did for others.  I didn’t learn to love myself and be honest about all that I have achieved and will achieve.  My attitude about loving myself correctly really needed a wake up call.  I needed to realize that how I talk to myself and how I feel about myself directly affects me and my overall well-being.

In order for me to change and become more grateful, I have to speak to myself in an encouraging and positive way.  I have to go out of my comfort zone and make an extra effort to stop degrading myself, being self-critical and downright mean to myself.  By speaking more lovingly and more honestly about how amazing I actually am, I can develop a much better attitude of gratitude.  I can start to appreciate all the things around me and most importantly all the things within me.  By allowing myself to love and speak to myself in a loving manner, where I tell myself that I am beautiful, smart, awesome or talented, I can finally be grateful for all that makes me, me!  This will then spill over into my outer world and that same level of love that I have for myself will transcend and be reflected in my interactions with others.  I will be able to encourage others and help them develop gratification as I exude the same level of gratification.  By fixing my own attitude of gratitude I can help slowly make the changes both within my inner and outer worlds.


“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.” ~ Melody Beattie


Numbers as Spirt Guides

Earlier I wrote about numbers and provided a guide of their meanings.  I want to elaborate a little more on numbers and how they act as Spirit Guides.  Numbers act as guides to help us make certain decisions or be concscious or aware of the decisions we need to make.  Sometimes in life we come across certain difficult choices and during these times we come across signs.  These signs may come in the form of numbers.  You may notice sometimes that you look up at the clock at exactly 11:11 or 12:12 or 12:21 and etc..  Why is it that we notice these numbers precisely at the moment when we think of something critical to our well-being?  Did you ever stop to ask why we notice them and what they mean when we notice them?

Below, I provided a list of the numbers and their spiritual meaning from the same site from my earlier blog post.  Please take a moment to read through the numbers and see what they mean.

“Below are the basic signs that Spirit Guides use to guide us in everyday life. They are not related to anything in particular, like your life path or life lesson in conjunction with astrological influences, as listed below. These signs guide us to the correct decisions on anything; from whether to carry an umbrella to work, to whether you should have a sandwich for lunch or a full meal. The reason for this guidance is for you to avoid an unpleasant experience, to provide you with something you will soon need, but don’t know yet, or even help you with decisions at work. These signs are listed with the specific interpretation, and it is up to you to apply it to your thoughts and feelings”.
111, 1111 – This is the New Cycle sign. It refers to what is new, fresh, prosperous and progressive in your life. Seeing this sign after thinking or feeling something about a topic in your life indicates that these thoughts will lead to new and exciting things in your daily life. Your Spirit Guides are indicating that these thoughts are healthy, because change is the essence of growth.
222, 2222 – This is the ‘Train of Thought’ sign. Your Spirit Guides will show you this sign to support what you are thinking. For example, you could be working on something at work, and see this sign. It indicates that you should continue with the current focus or thoughts for a solution, as it will lead you to the right conclusion.
333, 3333 – This sign is the Cosmic ‘Yes!’ It indicates a ‘Yes’ to absolutely anything, and that it is the right decision for you. It indicates that something will happen, even if sometimes it isn’t what you expect, or when you expect it, because it is an explicit sign. For example, you may ask your Spirit Guides, “Will I ever get married?” And they reply “333!” So you think, “Great! I’ll be married soon!” But the ‘soon’ part is of our making; ‘Yes’ you will get married, but they don’t say when! Still, it’s something to look forward to!
444, 4444 – This sign is the Cosmic ‘No!’ It indicates a ‘No’ to absolutely anything. For example, you could think, “I’m really getting sick of this job.”, but then see the ‘444’ sign to advise you, “No, don’t think like that. You’re just a bit tired, so don’t let such temporary things sway your mind.” It could also be as basic as, “I could do with some Pizza for dinner.”, whereby the ‘No’ would advise you that it wouldn’t be a good idea.
555, 5555 – This is the ‘Change’ sign. It is seen whenever you have had a change of mind about anything, and is a reflection of your state of mind. It prompts you to ask, “Hmm, a change of mind. Where will this change lead me?” It relates to any subject where you have changed your mind, and advises you think a little about it first, and to be sure this new direction is really the one you wish to take.
666, 6666 – This is the ‘Imbalance’ sign. It indicates that your thoughts have gone off on an unhealthy tangent, that isn’t focused on anything but nonsense. You could be thinking normally about something, and then your mind takes a tangent into fantastical or unrealistic territory. Through this sign, your Spirit Guides are letting you know that you have slipped off the right track, and for you to step back to the last correct train of thought.
777, 7777 – This is the ‘Lesson Learnt’ sign. It indicates that you have made a realisation or learnt a lesson. Your Spirit Guides are showing you this sign to reflect that you have learnt something, for you to think about it, and ask yourself questions, such as, “What have I learnt? What does this mean to me?” For example, the lesson may be that you have discovered that your work no longer inspires you as it once did. You have made this discovery, and now it is up to you as to how you proceed. 
888, 8888 – This is the ‘Phase About to End’ sign. Everything we do in our life can be categorised as a phase. From going to work to going shopping, all things are a series of short term phases. Your Spirit Guides will show you this sign when your thoughts will bring about the end of a phase, whether this end be natural or abrupt. For example, you could be making a Christmas present list, and once completed, you review it and think, “Oh, these five people don’t know each other, I can get them the same thing!” Your Spirit Guides could then show you the ‘888’ sign to advise that by following this plan, the phase of completing your Christmas shopping will very soon come to an end. You are being advised, but also asked to reflect upon your plan; sure, you’ll finish all of your shopping quicker, but will you be happy with the results?
999, 9999 – This is the ‘Completion of a Phase’ sign. It indicates the completion of a phase of thought or activity in your life. For example, you may think, “I’m not eating at that restaurant again!” Or, having reached your mental and emotional limit with a situation, think, “Okay, that’s enough now!” After which you’ll see the ‘999’ sign, reflecting the finality of your thoughts and feelings on a particular matter. Your Spirit Guides are showing you this sign as a reflection of your current mental and emotional state and that there is no going back from this point – it’s over.
000, 0000 – This is the ‘Unity with the Universe’. Your Spirit Guides will show you this sign to indicate to you that you’re doing fine; you’re thinking the right things, doing the right things, and in the right place, mentally and emotionally. Your Spirit Guides are saying, “Just carry on as you are!”

The Human “Race”

From the moment we are conceived to the moment we die, we, as humans, are living a race, known as the human “race”.  Starting from the bare seeds within the male testicles the race begins with millions of sperm trying to outrun one another to fertilize the egg in the females uterus.  This is where the race starts and then continues until we die.  Have you ever wondered why it is that we perceive our lives like this?  Everything a race, or a competition against one another and even against ourselves?  Who are we trying to beat?  Where are we trying to go too so fast?  Why do we live in a society where we pin ourselves against each other and compete for better jobs, more money, a bigger and better house, or a better girlfriend or boyfriend?

Even when we look around us, everything is a competition or a race of some kind.  From athletics to job hunting, to fame and fortune, to education to even child rearing.  We are all living our lives trying to out do one another rather than working and collaborating together.  The notion of helping one another and uplifting or empowering others who are not at a certain level is not a norm.  We as humans love to see others fail, we love to see others being judged and degraded by those more superior.  It’s like we have this sick twisted sense of living life.

Notice how even during the Roman Empire times gladiators would fight and peasants would be torn limb from limb savagely by animals while spectators watched happily as one of their own got tormented and destroyed right before their eyes.  Now a days we do not live this barbarically, however, this sense of torment still goes on to this very day.  From sports teams to reality show competitions to scholarships to getting the best jobs, it’s become this habit of ours to judge and criticize others and compare everyone to one another to find the “best” in this race we are living.   I do get that in order for us to achieve certain things we do require the best of the best at times or we do want to learn from the best.  I, myself, aspire to be the best at whatever it is I do, however, this constant competition mode we live in is not healthy for our beings.

I wish for a world where we work together and help others who are not at the same level achieve greatness.  I wish for a world where the best teach the worst, while the worst teach the best about patience, mastering their own fine arts, and gaining the satisfaction of helping others in lesser positions than themselves.  I wish for a world where we don’t have television shows that degrade a person who sings their soul out (even if they weren’t the best), but, instead praise him for being courageous enough to pursue his passion wile giving feedback on how to improve.  I wish for a world where we don’t see women and men being pinned against each other in manipulated competitions just to win a million dollar prize but no satisfaction within our very soul.  I wish to create a world where we empower one another, where if you lack a skill you can turn to your side and ask someone who doesn’t lack that skill to help you understand how to achieve greatness in that particular department.  I wish for a world where, if we do watch television shows, that they teach us about team building and how to work with one another to help solve problems, rather than watch individuals instigate problems while breaking others down.

I know that the human race is far from what I wish it actually was, but, I have the intention to create change in this world and I will put it out into the universe.  I want the world to be exactly as how I mentioned above.  I aspire to make these changes and one day in the future these changes will happen.


“If the human race wishes to have a prolonged and indefinite period of material prosperity, they have only got to behave in a peaceful and helpful way toward one another.” ~ Winston Churchill



Numbers and what they mean

Recently, I have been fascinated with numbers and their meaning because everywhere I go I notice certain numbers.  I kept asking myself why do I keep noticing numbers at odd times.  Certain numbers would appear out of nowhere on signs, license plates, or I would draw my eyes to the clock at specific times.  The constant noticing of numbers had me all wondering what is the relevance of this?  So, I did some research and came across the meaning of certain numbers.  I have copied this directly from so please take a look at the site to get a more clear understanding of what these numbers actually mean.

What the Numbers Mean

Different numbers are considered to define different characteristics. Numbers can change for us throughout our lives but the numbers we were born with influence our character, behaviour, strengths and weaknesses. Below is a list of the most common interpretation of these characteristics:

Number 0 – Limitless, Unity, Nothingness, Boundless, Truth, Purity, Love, All, Alpha and Omega, Possibility, First Cause, Unmanifest, Breath of God, Unified Field, Source, Space, Consciousness, Cosmic Egg, God.

Number 1 – Beginning, New, Focused concentration, Goal-striving, Action, Independence, Originality, Courage, Invention, Leader, Self-reliant, Ambition, Pioneer, Will, Conscious Mind, Positive.

Number 2 – Duality, Division, Polarity, Choice, Gestation, Cooperation, Service, Harmony, Support, Waiting, Diplomacy, Patience, Psychic, Intuition, Adaptable, Empathic, Partnership, Mediator, Comparison, Receptive, Helper, Collecting, Reproduction, Balancer of Opposites, Subconscious Memory, Positive and Negative.

Number 3 – Trinity, Union of Divine plus Human, Manifestation, Positive, Negative and Neutral, Expression, Subconscious Mind/Imagination, Creative, Optimistic, Enthusiasm, Expressive, Charming, Humour, Fun, Attractive, Friendly.

Number 4 – Practical, orderly, patient, logical, hard-working, loyal, builder, steadfast, frugal, responsible, earthy, planner, materially creative, green thumb, even tempered.

Number 5 – Adventure, change, freedom, exploration, variety, sensuality, unattached, curious, experienced, periodicity, knowledge seeker, knowledge teacher, traveller, imagination, child-like, playful.

Number 6 – Harmony, beauty, nurturing, love, marriage, family, responsibility, understanding, sympathy, healing, empathic, perfectionist, order, duty, comfort, service.

Number 7 – Philosopher, sage, wisdom seeker, reserved, inventor, stoic, contemplative, aloof, deep-thinker, introspective, spiritual, faith, esoteric, exotic, unusual, hidden, seeking perfection, ethereal, other worldly, enigma.

Number 8 – Achievement, abundance, executive, strength, self-disciplined, power, success, authority, psychology, entrepreneur, intensity, supervisor, provider, grandeur, material manifestor.

Number 9 – Endings, completion, humanitarian, compassionate, romantic, selfless, generous, philanthropic, loving, wisdom, idealist, artistic, spiritual healer, all allowing, other worldly, blending.

The heart wants what it wants

Sometimes in life we come across people that, logically speaking, we should not be with.  I am speaking of people that come into our lives to teach us lessons, turn our worlds upside down, and change or transform us into better versions of ourselves.  With these people, when it comes to the matters of the heart, all logic will be defied and nothing will make any sense.  These are the same people that have a constant pull on the strings of our hearts and we just can’t explain why.  When the heart really (with pure and good intentions) wants something, nothing can or will break that desire.

Have you ever been in a relationship that you know is not good for you?  Have you been in a relationship that hinders your own growth and you know you wouldn’t want to pursue it in the future?  You know the person you’re with at the present moment does not have all the qualities you hope for and desire in a partner.  But, for some reason you believe in a potential in them that you can only see with your heart?  You are fighting constantly to hold onto something, some slight form of hope, that everything you thought you knew or believed in about that person would eventually come true.  I know wise people always say that if a person hasn’t changed or is unwilling to change for the sake of your relationship than that person will never change.  Logic even proves time and time again that a person unwilling to make sacrafices or positive changes for a relationship doesn’t deserve to be in that relationship.  Furthermore, more often than not, people in those types of relationships don’t last forever.  How do you convince your heart to go the other way even after you know the million reasons for not being with that person you’re holding onto?

It’s hard to be a positive role model to others when you can’t seem to manage your own life, heart and mind.  However, I have to be honest about my personal struggles.  I can’t be a good role model if I mask my problems and try to convince myself that I am completely in control when I know I am completely out of control.  I have to be honest about my weaknesses so that I can make the appropriate changes.  Struggling with this inner battle of the heart and mind is taking a severe toll on my spirit and being.  My soul wants to believe in something that I can’t convince my mind of.  My logical side keeps kicking in and telling me this person is not good for me.  My mind shows me all the  things I will be giving up by continuing to pursue this relationship.  My mind and sometimes even my heart tells me that this person isn’t treating me the right way because he isn’t ready or he doesn’t deserve me.  It’s like the smart person in me knows all the things that are wrong with this whole situation.  But the lover, dreamer and optimist in me shows me a picture of how great it could be.  I see something great in the other person that the rest of the world fails to see.

I just don’t know how to get rid of this iron grip hold this person has over my heart.  I know a million reasons why I shouldn’t be with him, yet I can’t let go.  He isn’t even meeting my bare minimum standards of what I expect in a partner.  Is this a battle of my ego?  Is this really true love?  Why is my soul so connected to this individual?  Why do I feel like I can’t let him or myself down by giving up on him?  Why is this happening to me?  Something keeps pulling me back to him even though he flips the script and makes it seem like everything is my fault.  I know I sound absolutely nuts to anyone watching or reading this from the outside.  I feel crazy because I can’t make any sense of my emotions.  I am smart, so why can’t I let go of something that’s this unhealthy?  Why do I keep convincing myself that there is something more that I can’t seem to grasp just yet?  I can give the best advice to others about getting out of dysfunctional relationships, however, I can’t apply the same advice to my own situation.  Why is this?  What is wrong with me?

After struggling with this inner battle of the heart and mind for so long, I feel so broken.  I feel like I cannot be the person I wish to be by holding onto this.  At the same time, I feel like I can’t be what I wish to be without conquering this relationship either.  My heart knows what it wants, but, is what it wants even right?  In the present moment, I don’t know.  However, what I do know is, I am going to stop this battle.  I am going to trust my heart to do the right thing.  Even if it breaks, I will walk away knowing my heart was absolutely true to itself.  The only thing I can do at this point is to be honest about my struggles and hope that everything will work itself out.  I have no idea what the future holds, I only know what is held inside my heart right now.  Since there is no predicting tomorrow, I will be true to my heart today.  I will continue loving without condition.  Maybe this is exactly the purpose of this person in my life.  Maybe this is the universe’s and God’s plan to help teach me how to finally love without conditions and accept someone wholeheartedly with all their faults.  Until I figure it out, I’ll allow my heart to continue to go after what it wants.

 Time to reflect:

Are you in an unhealthy relationship that you just can’t seem to get away from?  Mine has dragged on and on for years.  It’s been a roller coaster ride indeed.  I have learned many things throughout the years, but, the most important lesson I learned was to be present and aware of my feelings in the moment.  I am not here to hide my faults and weaknesses.  I want to be a role model that can help others and most importantly help myself.  I can only accomplish that by exposing some of my deepest secrets in the hopes that someone who is sharing a similar experience can also learn and apply my life lessons to their own.  If you’re like me, trapped in a vicious cycle, trust the part of your body and spirit that speaks the loudest.  If it’s your heart listen to it.  If it’s your mind, listen to that.  Either way, be true to how you are feeling in the present moment.  Do your abolute best to be true to your feelings and take it slow and just hope for the best.  Trust yourself.


“No relationship is ever a waste of time. If it didn’t bring you what you want, it taught you what you DON’T want.” ~ bubu

Rituals Vs. Science

Have you ever wondered about the many cultural rituals that people have and where they originated from or what the purpose is?  Well science has proven to help explain some of the many rituals that we practice.  Science helps explain why we do what we do and the benefits of doing said ritual.  Below, I will list 9 rituals that have been explained by science.  Please take a look to understand some of the most common rituals of our modern day.

1. Throwing Coins into a river – When we think of throwing a coin into a river or a fountain or a body of water, we typically associate it with attaining Good Luck.  However, the scientific explanation is that in ancient times, most currency which was made of copper not stainless steel coins like today, would act as a vital metal for the human body.  By throwing the coins into the river it would ensure that we intake a sufficient amount of copper as some of the river acted as a source for drinking water.

2. Namaste/Joining both palms together to greet others – Often when we think of this gesture we immediately think of the Hindu culture.  We often associate this gesture with “Namaskar” which is a greeting of respect.  The scientific reason for this gesture is that by joining both hands together you ensure a meeting of all pressure points.  Joining the tips of all fingers together; which act as pressure points of the eyes, ears and mind, activates the pressure points which helps us remember the person we are meeting for a long time.  Furthermore, this acts a defense mechanism for attracting germs since no physical contact is made with others.

3. Worshipping the Tulsi plant – The Tulsi plant, a very sacred plant in Hinduism, is recognized as a religious and spiritual plant.  This plant has great medicinal properties and acts as a remarkable antibiotic.  Ingesting Tulsi everyday in the form of a tea or other means helps increase ones immunity and help prevent disease, stabilize the health and overall prolong life.  Also, keeping a Tulsi plant at home prevents insects and mosquitoes from entering the home and also it is noted that snakes avoid Tulsi plants at all cost.

4. Wearing a Toe ring – The significance of wearing a toe ring (for married Hindu women) is that the toe ring is typically worn on the second toe.  This toe has a specific nerve that connects the uterus and passes to the heart.  Wearing the ring on this toe strengthens the uterus.  It apparently keeps it healthy by regulating blood flow while regulating the menstrual cycle. Back then most of these rings were made from silver and as silver is a good conductor it absorbs polar energies from the earth as they pass through and into the body.

5. Temples having bells – Most hindu temples around the world have a bell placed at the entrance or in front of a religious statue or idol.  People visit these temples and are expected to ring the bell.  According to religious beliefs, the bell is used to create a specific sound for warding off evil forces and making pleasant sounds for the Gods.  The scientific reason is that the ringing actually clears our mind and helps us keep full concentration while praying.  The sound these bells produce create a vibrational force in our brain that activates both parts of the brain, left and right sides.  When the bell is rung it produces a sharp enduring sound which lasts for a minimum of seven seconds in echo mode.  The duration of the echo is long enough to activate all seven healing centres of the body thus, emptying the mind from negative thoughts.

6. Worshipping the Peepal Tree – The Peepal Tree is commonly known as a useless plant, it doesn’t bare any fruits, it’s wood is not strong enough to be used for any purpose and only provides shade.  However, this tree is highly regarded as sacred and many worship it.  The main reason for its existence is that it is one of the only (or possibly even the only) trees that can produce oxygen even at night.

7. Applying Henna on the hand – It is a common practice in many cultures to apply Henna to the hand and feet before getting married.  Besides giving a beautiful colour to the hands, Henna acts as a powerful medicinal herb. Weddings are often very stressful and as weddings approach many deal with stress which can lead to headaches, fever or overall anxiety.  The application of henna can prevent stress as it acts as a cooling agent to the body and keeps the nerves from becoming tense.  The hands and feet house these nerves that once cooled down can help reduce stress and anxiety.

8. Sitting on the floor and eating – The main purpose of this tradition is not for respect.  The reason for sitting is to mimic the “Sukasan” position while eating.  Sukhasan is a posture in Yoga that helps activate proper breathing.  Sitting in this position while eating helps improve digestion as the circulatory system can focus solely on digestion and not on the legs dangling from a chair or supporting us while we stand and eat.

9. Why we shouldn’t sleep with our head facing North – The myth with this ritual is that it invites ghosts or death at your bedside when you sleep in this direction.  Science explains that the human body has its own magnetic field because of the flow of blood.  Earth acts as a giant magnet.  When we sleep with our heads facing north, our body’s magnetic field become completely asymmetrical to the Earth’s magnetic field.  This alignment causes problems related to blood pressure and our heart thus needs to work harder.


Cheating yourself

There have been countless times where I cheated myself. I set goals then lied to myself about the work I put in, the actual results I achieved, went back on my word, and even the reason why I was doing it to begin with. Who does this hurt at the end of the day? Only me! I write this because I need to put myself on blast for all the wrongs I am committing against myself.  I am acknowledging the truth of my matter.

By cheating yourself you spiral into destructive habits.  You fall into depression because you come across as a liar and a cheat to yourself.  You create a persona of yourself that lacks discipline, self control, self worth, self respect, is weak and lacks integrity.  By cheating yourself you trap yourself in this false identity of who you really are.  You feel embarrased because your supporters believe in you so much while you lack any belief in yourself.

The reality is that I am not doing as much as I should be.  I have many amazing ideas and I am excellent at starting things, however, I lack consistency and congruency.  The fact is I need to be real with myself for my sanity.  It’s great to have knowledge and speak of certain truths, but, what good is that if you cannot apply those truths to your own life and lead by example?  I have a long way to go in terms of accepting my strengths and weaknesses.  I am aware of my downfalls and by putting myself on blast I am not placing judgement or putting myself down, in fact, I am doing the exact opposite.  I am allowing myself to grow and change because I cannot accept the current frame of mind I am in.  I cannot live a life where my dreams and visions do not match my reality.  If I know that I am cheating myself how can I ever be an example to those who look to me for help or advice?  My advice would be biased or unjust because I would not be in the right frame of mind to help someone else.

Going forward, the only way I can avoid cheating myself is by being completely transparent with myself.  If there are things I wish to do, I have be honest about my intentions.  Why am I doing this, for who and what and etc.?  I have to ask myself real questions and if I cannot answer those questions then I need to realize that what I am doing in that moment will only lead to me lying to myself.  I have to consciously catch myself before I get into the habit of cheating myself by noticing my energy or lack there of.  If my energy toward a particular goal or vision is not on high vibration mode, then it means I will not put all my effort into said activity.  The reason why I will do this is to avoid getting involved in activities that will take time away from what is actually good for my development.  By noticing my energy level I can make an honest judgement on what I am investing into.  If I am lacking energy even before committing to something, than I know that the results I will attain will not meet my expectations or will not fulfill me the way I want it too.

I am no longer going to cheat myself.  I plan to do this by being honest and true to myself and admitting when I haven’t done what I need to do.  This will force me to take appropriate actions to align myself with my goals.  I need to take better and more conscious action toward achieving my goals and I can only do that if my mind isn’t distracted by my own lies.  There is nothing wrong with not accomplishing things, but there is something wrong with setting out goals, doing it half-assed, lying about the results because you never attained them the way you anticipated, and ultimately cheating yourself of personal development.

Time to reflect:

Do you cheat yourself?  Do you tell yourself you will do something and then recant or go back on your word?  This might be something so small that you don’t pay attention too such as making your bed in the morning, or exercising 3 times a week and etc.. But, it’s those small habits that lead to your character.  Do you want to be known as a cheat and liar to yourself?  Because I know I don’t!  I want to be able to look myself in the eyes and with conviction say that everything I do and say is 100% the truth of my reality.  Once I become that woman, I can achieve anything, and so can you!