For the past few years I’ve been dealing with an on again off again relationship. This relationship has been by far the hardest one to get over. For some reason I keep getting sucked right back into the viscious cycle. This relationship is extremely unique, whereby, most people in normal relationships would probably consider it quite unhealthy. I do not deny that many components of this relationship is in fact unhealthy. However, something inside of me is not willing to give up on the potential of the other person involved. For some weird reason I have this massive obligation, or feel the need too, nurture my partner and help him grow as an individual.
After years of agonizing over whether to leave or stay, I have finally come to the conclusion of accepting the reality that is. I have come to finally accept that this person came into my life as a lesson but not a lifetime. I am well aware that this person was introduced to me by the universe to help shake things up and make me break free from my old ways. I understand today that this relationship was designed to strengthen me and help me put things into perspective of what I truly deserve versus what I want. I have allowed my heart to follow its course and I can safely say I have zero regrets. My heart has not been broken nor has it given up. Instead, my heart has finally learned and applied unconditional love.
I know that unconditional love is very rare to find. Unless you have children most people will never understand the notion of unconditional love. However, from time to time, we get the rare individuals that come into our lives who help us finally grasp this concept. To feel so strongly for someone that you have zero obligation too is a beautiful thing. I have become a better person because of my partner. I have learned what my limits and my extremes are. I can finally truly look at myself in the mirror and know exactly what I deserve.
I have accepted the reality of my partner and his purpose in my life. I am very grateful that I stuck it out and allowed my heart to pursue what it wanted. I have learned to trust my soul and heart because of this man. I have finally learned to let go and trust in the universe to teach me the lessons that I am supposed to learn. I am not giving up on our relationship, rather, I am accepting his limited scope within my world. By finally accepting the reality, I no longer fear the end of our relationship, rather, I am embracing the change that is to come. I no longer fear not having him in my life, rather, I am excited to start a new beginning of self-love. By accepting the reality of our situation, both of us can finally grow and apply the many lessons we have taught one another. By accepting the reality, both of us can transform into the persons we are meant to be.
“It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror of another loving, caring human being.” ~ John Joseph Powell